Tuesday, February 10, 2009

All by myself

"All by myself, Don't wanna be all by myself, All by myself, Don't wanna live by myself"

Like a broken record, I have those lyrics repeating over and over in my head. I find that song obnoxious but it accurately describes how I feel. As of next Tuesday morning, I will be the only American left in Awkunanaw. Aubrie has decided to go back to the United States.

I don't know what to say. I like it here, I like the sisters, and I like working at the school but I never thought I would be the only volunteer here. In the past I could always commiserate with Aubrie. When people would point and stare, it wasn't just me they were gawking at, it was us. If something at dinner upset our stomachs there was someone to help speculate which ingredient was the culprit. It was a big comfort to live with someone who understood me without an explanation.

I don't know if I can do this all by myself but I am going to try. Whatever doesn't kill me can only make me stronger, right?

4 comments:

  1. Katie,
    I know it may sound like a pat answer, but remember, you're not alone. God is always with you. I am so proud of you. What an awesome experience! I can't wait until I can talk to you about it more.

    Stay Strong!
    Debby Rhodes

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  2. Hi Katie,
    We are at the Youth Group lock in reading your blog as a group. We have been learning about prayer and we are being moved into prayer for you. Hang in there. This is just another mountain you will have to climb! You are a mountain Mama! And this is just like a muddy creek in Kentucky. Keep climbing Katie, and don't roll down the hill.....again.
    Love, The Mountain Trubadors and the rest of the youth group!

    P.S. Bethanie still owes you $20, you get it when you finish your entire mission!
    P.S.S. We love you, and we are moved into prayer for you!

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  3. Katie-

    after madely searching google, i finally found your blog! im so excited to read how you have been- and your experience on the mission. I cannot imagine what has been going through your head- it seems like ALOT to take in.
    I just got back from out youth group lock-in, and Julie returned me home and hour and 45 minutes past curfew (12am) *gasp* it was fun, we played bible blender (i know you would be up for it! :] ) and flashlight tag, we got together, watched videos, and read your blog.
    while reading your blog, i was reminded of the sacrifices you made to go to Africa. I hope someday i will become a strong and self-less person like you.
    please listein to this song, Sway your head by We shot the moon. I hope it keeps you motivated :]
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHWAgv36-i4

    keep hangin' in there, keep inspired
    we all <3 you!!!

    -Robin

    P.S. check your facebook, i sent you a friend request

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  4. Hi Katie, I spoke with your Mom and Dad at the Knights of Columbus Hall. Your mom said that you are by yourself now. Just to let you know you are not alone. We are with you in your heart and our love for you and your work are stroner than ever. Thank you for doing what you are doing.
    God Bless, Phil Mikalik

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